Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
As a person, I don’t think I have changed too much. I am definitely colder, more guarded… with all the stress and pain I have gone through in the past two years I think a part of my imagination has pretty much died, too. But at the same time, I am wiser and a lot stronger… and I believe in myself a bit more because I have been able to pull through all the trouble. Ask me this question again in two years though, because my life is about to go under a drastic change early next year… I wonder how much that will change me. For the better, I hope.
I was just chilling in some house, listening to Tool and shit, and there’s a knock at my door. And MJK is there with his little dog, and he’s like ‘my car broke down, I need to borrow your driveway to fix it’. And I tell him oh yeah, that’s cool, and we sit outside and talk for a while like we’ve just known each other forever.
He gets his car fixed, and I ask for a autograph. So he hands me one, and then he says ‘let me make two more, one for your mom and one for your dad. They did a good job.’ So he makes two more, hands them to me, and is on his way.
And I look down at the autographs, and he wrote them in like a rainbow colored pencil, except that there is a message on it not in English… but in like… alien. And I remember, vividly, saying in my dream,
"Fuck yeah, now I have something to do. I get to decipher this." And I am totally thrilled.
I have quite a few shows that I really like… so… hmm…
As totally lame as it is, I love the show ‘House Hunters International’ on HGTV. I just love seeing how different homes are in other places, and so much cheaper usually too… it’s just really interesting to me.
Being a person that dropped out of high school and has not yet gone to college, I can say that an education is pretty necessary now a days… it’s been nearly impossible for me to find a job. But what’s even trickier is choosing the right thing to go to school for, I think.
“Holding on to anything is like holding on to your breath. You will suffocate. The only way to get anything in the physical universe is by letting go of it. Let go & it will be yours forever.”— Deepak Chopra (via oceanofmind)
i totally agree with your rant post. seeing pictures of animal cruelty severely upset me as well (i know which cat pic you're talking about, it made me cry for ages, and i still get upset at the thought of it cause its stuck in my mind) if someone ~must~ reblog something with the image abuse, there should at least be a link leading to it so us followers won't have to be subjected to something THAT unpleasant.
don't leave tumblr though.
i like your blog :3
That’s a good idea, I wish that people would do that. ): Sometimes I think that people reblog things without really thinking… things like that just aren’t necessary, plus I would hate to have pictures like that on my blog.
And thanks. :D I’m glad someone does, haha. I like yours too. :3
Okay. I rarely rant, but this has really been on my mind.
I have been considering quitting Tumblr because there are just some things I can not stand seeing anymore. I swear, if I see another picture of a dead puppy or kitten I am going to lose it. I am all for finding the person that did it, but when the person isn’t even in the picture it’s not possible. A couple of people on my dash posted that pic/story of the four kittens that were killed, and I no joke cried. I had nightmares about it, and it’s always coming up in my mind. That picture was fucked up, as was the description, and it did not need to be on Tumblr or really anywhere. We are already well aware of the cruelty in this world, we don’t need to be constantly reminded of it. I wish I could find the person that did that, but I can’t, and by the pic there was no way to even come close to identifying who did it. So… Tumblr is really becoming a downer for me. I used to love getting on here, and now it’s like… what’s it gonna be today? What used to be a pick me up now is just… depressing. Seriously. I saw a video a couple years ago of some guys skinning a cat alive, and that fucked me up forever. I can’t stand shit like that. People are cruel. And you know what? No matter how many times you post a picture, or raise awareness, it’s not going to stop. Because that is human nature.
The craze was started in American prisons when prisioners would basically sell themselves for money. Wearing their trousers below their anus, it was a sign to other inmates that they would happily ‘take it up the bum’ for money.
So all you ‘Gangsters’ with your baggy jeans thinking you got ‘Swagger’, really just want a bit of anal.
I’m one of those people that never connected with their parents, so disrespecting kind of went both ways. I shut them out of my lives, and they didn’t try to understand me when I needed them to most. I’ve made a lot of mistakes which in the end dishonored them, which I regret. But I was never into church, I was never at the top of my class, I preferred to keep to myself instead of going places or making friends, and I am not afraid to tell people what I think… which has gotten me into a lot of trouble in the past… I think that because of those things, they couldn’t just… accept me. So we’ve always had a bitter relationship.
My beliefs in a nutshell: I believe in equality and happiness. I believe in not looking down on others. I believe that spirituality comes from within and not from a church. I believe that meat is delicious but being vegan is cool too… I just can’t do it. I believe that letting go of your past is the only way you can move forward. I believe that politics suck and I’d rather stay out of them. I believe in imagination. I believe in being yourself.